forever till forever meets no end

Sunday, March 22, 2009 @1:39 PM

i can't believe the holidays passed so quickly. nowadays time seems to fly past yet pass so slowly at the same time. i don't want school to start :(

havn't finished history pt stuff.
nationals are coming in 29 days. so many changes are happening at the last minute and i have no idea whether it's for better or for worse. i just hope that in the end its all for the best and we'll put in our greatest ever effort to do our best and not disappoint.

helped to facil the sec 1's church camp. when i look at them i don't recall being so small. jon and i are strong people we carried 9 big heavy tables are 3o over chairs haha. i think their church camp is becoming more and more high class. they even get hot dogs for movie marathon and my brother ate 5 sometimes i wonder how he eats so much and still stays underweight. gah. i wish i could have stayed the whole way through but i had training the next morning :(

i need an outlet for all my stress. i think we really need to get our act together. i don't know whether it's because our hearts are just no longer into gym or its because its already a gone cause. i really hope it isn't. we only have 29 more days. i really hope we can do it. part of me believes that we will be able to. but juat when the hope builds up, everything comes crashing down again.

this is horrible. i have never felt so unprepared in my life.